Let me start this blog by thanking my mother for exposing me to music. When I was little mom had a van with an 8-track in it... what I remember most about that is Fleetwood Mac and Blondie playing. It was cool! A little later she got a Z-28 and had a very nice Pioneer stereo in that... along the way she exposed me to likes of ZZ Top, Journey, Def Lepard and many varied others. She also had a very nice stereo system in the house and every Sunday morning we'd listen to the Top 40 countdown instead of turning on the TV. It was sort of an event, listen while cleaning the house. Why does this matter... Well this morning I was feeling a bit down... actualy alot down. You see yesterday was Valentine's Day and I ordered Angie flowers to be delivered to her office and all but she took a half day off so she never got them. Next I had tried to find this one item I knew she'd love, I went to several stores over the weeks leading up to Vday and never could put my hands on one. I got a printout of all the Macys and called and called but could not get one. In the end it came down to one store was supposed to get them on VDay... well I could not risk it! So at the last minute I ordered it online and got 2 day shipping this was Saturday. With Vday 3 days away I thought I'd get it in time but no... Monday came and went with no notification of shipping, I emailed them Tuesday and asked WTF! I did not get a reply but a few hours later I got a shipment notification with next day shipping. Still a chance! YES! On the 14th I'm stressed because she's leaving work and no flowers yet... then I check my package and it's holed up in New Jersey... which is in the middle if an ice storm so I know I'm screwed!
... back to the point! In effect Angie got nothing for VDay. I told her about everything and she is excited but she got nothing. So I am driving in this morning thinking about what a dink I was for not recognizing this and feeling incredibly blue. I am listening to Howard Stern on Sirius... he is talking about music and the bands that have been in studio and how some song reminded him of his grandfather. I was thinking yea that's nice and started looking for something else to listen to when I found Elton John - Bennie and the Jets on. I put it on. Instantly I have visions of my mom, doing housework on Sunday listening to the radio. It was uncanny! I had a perfect vision of it... all of the sadness left me instantly and it made me think, in the information age I spend far to much time jumping from station to station wanting more more more... mutitasking even music! So I stopped and listened to Bennie and the Jets, I thought about my mom and those Sunday mornings and forgave myself for what I did to Angie yesterday, I mean afterall she is about to have the best day after Valentine's Day ever, and I just listened to the song.
I stopped to smell the roses!
Thanks mom you probably had no idea that you were doing this at the time and it was dumb luck but those actions 30 years ago saved your boy some pain today.
... and I'm sorry hon I hope today makes up for it a little and I'll never let it happen again!
and for everyone else... stop and listen to a song today or admire a piece of art... just slow down for a second and take a moment. I firmly believe that those 3 minutes saved me a full day pain.
Aww, hon. It's my fault I didn't get the flowers on the V-day (I picked that day to go to Dade's school to help with the party...next time I'll pick Christmas!). And they were here this morning anyway. And I'm estatic about the purse, so one day late is no big deal! I love that you put so much thought into the day just for me.
P.S. This didn't make me cry, just smile, but I bet your mom cries!
:: 2/9/2007 6:08:48 AM http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/02/08/toddler.death.ap/index.html WTF is wrong people! I mean damn it!!! Sometimes someone needs to be put to death there is no rehabilitation no insanity just a person who bad! I seriously felt like throwing up after I read this. I was in such a good mood and now I'm shattered... be warned this is very very sad.
:: 2/15/2007 9:19:37 AM
